What goes on in that mind...

random quote...

2005-08-09T07:20:50Z

"A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort."

- Herm Albright

Kind of a cool one

2005-07-28T06:24:57Z

the Wit
(73% dark, 39% spontaneous, 22% vulgar)

your humor style:
CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK

You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you're
probably an intellectual, but don't take that to mean you're
pretentious. You realize 'dumb' can be witty--after all isn't that the
Simpsons' philosophy?--but rudeness for its own sake, 'gross-out' humor
and most other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat.

I
guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the
perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff writer. Your sense of humor
takes the most effort to appreciate, but it's also the best, in my
opinion.

Also, you probably loved the Office. If you don't know what I'm
talking about, check it out here: http://www.bbc.co.uk/comedy/theoffice/.
Bethibunny.. we matched up on this one.. go fig...

PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Jon Stewart - Woody Allen - Ricky Gervais

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on dark
You scored higher than 0% on spontaneous
You scored higher than 33% on vulgar

Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on OkCupid Free Online Dating

Thought for the Day...

2005-07-19T18:57:22Z

"Reputation is a bubble which a man bursts when he tries to blow it for himself."

- Emma Carleton

Quote time

2005-07-19T06:58:02Z

"Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced"

- James Baldwin

update on B-day woes...

2005-07-19T06:52:02Z

Thank you all for the Love. I went out around mid-night on Friday night and stayed for about 2 1/2 hours. It was fun but it didn't really pull me out of my darkness. I did turn it around for myself Saturday night when I went to Bleu and got to hear 4 great DJs blow the place up. I got completely lost in the music and just had a fantastic time.

now for some personal notes to some wonderful people...

bethibunny... "YAY FOR STUFF!!!" miss you sweetie... smoochies - and stuff ;-)
Shanny girl... I know you would, if you could *HUGS*
Mini-me... you were there with me in spirit, I was in the cage a LOT, woohoo
Megs... my fellow cancerian cutie... the hopes weren't really THAT high. oh well, it got better. Mostly...
Tommy.. my man, we'll both make it through this foggy time, and hopefully we can hang some time soon...

happy birthday to me...

2005-07-16T03:19:21Z

what a birthday...

day begins, I'm on a high... a natural one
things are looking up
getting stuff done, living life and moving forward a bit
will this be the day I can turn my year around?
or at least start around that bend to healing and the other good stuff?
it looks like it, puppy kisses and purring kitty...
unconditional love is fantastic...
it's going to be such a great weekend.
should have known better...
plans are collapsing everywhere...
dog won't come near when I'm crying...
cat seems to know something...
hoped for more than I ever should have...
trying to scream and nothing comes out...
tears are blinding me...
glad I was in the shower when they hit so hard...
can't be like this...
I'm everyones rock, I have to get through this shit...
NO ONE should ever be alone on their birthday...
unless it's their choice...
it sure wasn't mine...

gonna try to turn it around...
change the music...
music has always freed me from everything when I needed it
don't know if 'bandwidth' will work but gonna try it..
hopefully I can loose myself in the music...
staying completely sober and clean for my b-day may have been a mistake
considering extenuating circumstances and all...
but gonna keep it that way til tomorrow sometime at least...
I can do this...
the music change is already working...
24 with 12 years experience...
sometimes I feel like emotionally I'm 12 ...
where'd that other 24 years go?
physically, very thankful I don't feel my age...
hehehe, not even close...
ok...
now I'm ready to go out...
back to your regularly scheduled rants...

if you bothered to read all of this...
HUGS...
and probably a "love you sweetie/bro" in there too...

Life?

2005-06-22T01:18:57Z

What is life? It is the flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset.

Crowfoot - Blackfoot Chief

Solstice... a renewal...

2005-06-21T07:24:02Z

We have two wonderful events, for me anyways, happening at the same time. A fantastic Full Moon, and the Solstice. I have made my peace with myself and said my prayer to our Mother Earth. I have given my thanks for all she gives unto us each and every day. I offered sage and sweet grass to her four winds. I said an Old Native Prayer to the Great Spirit. I renewed my connection with myself and my world. I have decided to reopen my life to all our bountiful mother has to offer. I'm not giving up my life as it is known, but I am bringing back into it, that, which I feel, I had wondered too far away from.
The old native prayer I said on this eve is meant to be read as it flows in the lines that follow...

O'Great Spirit,

Whose voice I hear in the winds,

And whose breath gives life to all the world, hear me!

I am small and weak, I need your strength and wisdom.

Let me walk in beauty, and make my eyes ever behold the red and purple sunset.

Make my hands respect the things you have made and my ears sharp to hear your voice.

Make me wise so that I may understand the things you have taught my people.

Let me learn the lessons you have hidden in every leaf and rock.

I seek strength, not to be greater than my brother,

but to fight my greatest enemy - myself.

Make me always ready to come to you with clean hands and straight eyes.

So when life fades, as the fading sunset,

my spirit may comes to you without shame.

Quote time

2005-06-13T05:40:46Z

"A mind, like a home, is furnished by it's owner, so if one's life is cold and bare he can blame none but himself"

- Louis L'Amour

poignant to say the least...

random quote I found...

2005-06-10T07:37:39Z

"It is not failure, but more often the fear of failure that sabotages success."

I think I'm going to start adding good random quotes i find on a regular basis... what do you think?

ah dreams... ;-)

2005-06-10T07:35:35Z

Your Erotic LJ dream by cozzette

username

you went to bed feeling

You began to dream about

jamiekristine

who was

doing you

a hotel room

with

leather on

which made you

twitch

but was interupted by

thatguychuck

who began to

watch

You awoke

hoping you dont talk in your sleep

and you hope

that dreams do come true

chance of that happening:: 87%

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Jamie wearing leather.. never...

revelation... healing

2005-06-01T16:44:37Z

wow.. what an ass I was.. I was so stuck in trying to figure out what went wrong, I couldn't just be happy to look back and see all the beautiful things that were right. I owe two wonderful people a huge apology. I blew a chance at being able to bond and heal. I wasn't listening to myself and hearing the other definitions of "if you love something, set it free" Set the memories free. Sometimes you just have to "let it go" in order to let it heal, then later go back and figure it out. Why couldn't I see that for myself sooner? I've told other people that. I've seen it now though, and now all I can do is shake my head. I'm ashamed of myself for not seeing it sooner. i should have picked up pen and paper a longtime ago. That's where I saw it. Right there on the page. Typing here and in my private journal on my computer were to impersonal and turned into just vents.

I had to delete my last entry. Because it was written while in emotional turmoil. I couldn't let that entry stand any longer. I was too wrong.

Big Surprise...

2005-05-27T11:21:48Z

You have a Purple Lightsaber.

Purple is associated with wisdom, dignity,
independence, creativity, mystery, and magic.
Purple denotes high spirituality and religious
aspiration. Purple also represents Peacefulness
and Purification. It also has a sense of
intuitive understanding and a feeling of
intimacy with the world.

What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla

hehehe.. looky mini-me

2005-05-27T11:17:54Z

Star Wars Meme by sailor_phobos

1st 2 Ltrs of 1stname + Last 3 Ltrs of last name

1st 2ltrs of moms last name+Last 3ltrs of city brn

Sith or Jedi

Sith

Skin Color

White

Eye Color

Blue

Light Saber Color

Orange

How close you are to switching sides: 100%

Username

You're Random Star Wars Quote:

Don't underestimate the Force.

Your Padawan (if you're a jedi)

lorekeeper

Your apprentice (if you're a sith)

tommytoony

You're Master

monica_renee

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Yes my Master ;-)

Introducing Shane and Sarah Cantrell...

2005-05-16T04:55:12Z

I got to see two of my VERY dear friends get married today. It was such a beautiful ceremony. They had a wonderful video presentation accompanied by music before the the mothers lit the candles that the couple would be lighting the "unity" candle from. It started with Shane's full name and his birthdate, then we got to see pictures from when his mother was pregnant to him being born and slowly watched him grow up in the photos. I hadn't realized I had known him THAT long. It was very cute seeing his personality traits showing up in his pictures as he grew up it was always in him. Got a little choked up. Then we watched Sarah grow up in pictures. Wow, again I've known her several years too. She was always her too, you could just see it in her smiles and the look in her eyes in the pictures. Still choked up a bit. Then it was a compilation of pictures of them and their times together. I was there the day his feelings for her went from flirty friends to "I need to be with this woman" So we got to see them in pictures together from the last few years, and you could see their love just growing and growing. Their affection for each other just poured off the screens and into our hearts. I was on the verge of crying, the good happy tears. There was some sadness on my part due to parts of my life not being where I would like them to be. The ceremony was good. The Priest that performed it was good, he kept it light hearted and wasn't all serious and stuff. There was a bit more god and jesus references than most of us expected, but that was probably mostly for the relatives present. At the reception the best man, another dear friend, gave a beautiful speech about what the definition of family is. I have to remember to ask him for a copy of what he said. I did cry during that part, but so did several of the "Old Joust Crew". We all think of each other as true family. We've been there for each other when it counted. We've been there through thick and thin. We've been there when "friends" weren't. We've been there when blood relations refused. True family. Seeing these two fantastic people sharing this moment with us was pure magic. I wouldn't have missed it for the world. I am SO happy for you Shane and Sarah. I wish you an eternity of Love and Happiness TOGETHER!!!

I Will Survive!!!

2005-04-09T03:24:09Z

"Good... Bad... I'm the guy with the 'Katana'..." *wink*

ok bodycount.. but look at my chances of survival...

Your Livejournal zombie attack.

LiveJournal Username

The name of your zombie infested home town.

Your zombie killing weapon of choice.

How much do zombies scare you?

Oh noes!!11 A zombie! What do you do?

Blasting zombies left and right with a freaking twelve guage. What do you think?

lnicole

Curled into a fetal position crying their eyes out.

little_anomaly

Is pwning some zombies with Don't Stop Me Now playing in the background.

fuzzytek

Is sitting at home watching CNN and eating ice cream.

little_anomaly

Get ripped to pieces by the zombies. Bummer.

jonesaholic

Is the zombie king who you must destroy to end the zombie menace.

monica_renee

Number of zombies you decapitate.

395

Chances you survive the zombie swarm.

99%

Quiz created by Kingcheapskate at BlogQuiz.Net

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Wow...

2005-04-08T21:19:59Z

Purer than I thought I'd be...

Very Kinky
You are 32% pure

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 16% on purity

Link: The 100 Point Sexual Purity Test written by ocicat on OkCupid Free Online Dating

had to do it

2005-04-01T23:16:15Z

Jobs for your LJ Friends by brianwarnersgrl
Username
are you sure you want to know?
positive?
ok this person is a hooker:	kabelicious
this person is a wrestler:	cindy_gem
this person is in a famous band:	mattcrain
this person is the singer of that band:	firedance9
this person will be the future president in 2026:	thatguychuck
this person is a babymaker:	infamusluv
this person is a drug dealer:	equilibrium721
this person is a stripper:	lorekeeper
and of course we all knew they would be a nun	jamiekristine

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Cindy.. you made it... and who is your first match?
Chuck for prez.. Got my vote bro!
Jamie??? yeah right ;-)

EXACTLY !

2005-04-01T23:04:44Z

I found a quote that I think makes all the sense in the world, and kind of explains why I try to always be happy and bouncy and dancing around when I can. Well aside from dancing be a great way to get out frustrations and aggressions and help me make the troubles disappear for a while.

"For every minute you are angry you lose sixty seconds of happiness."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Confusion Sux

2005-03-31T02:06:29Z

I feel so confused lately. About everything too. The little things, the major things, everything in between. I don't know if I can trust my own thoughts lately. I see things but I'm not sure if I'm just seeing them from my own perspective, alone. Rather than how I used to be able to see stuff. I was so used to seeing things from the Devil's Advocate perspective. I would see stuff from several different points of view, and be able to help others all the time that way. Now, when I need to help myself, I can't see a damn thing sometimes. I doubt myself at every turn. I hate feeling like this. I've always been good at helping others and lousy at helping myself. I don't remember it being this bad before. Maybe it's because I don't really have anyone I can truly talk to right now. Everyone I used to talk to is either gone or has too biased of an opinion one my current issues. FRUSTRATING!

OK... enough ranting... on to our regularly sceduled programming...

bounce bounce, dance dance, social butterfly... bounce bounce, dance dance, happy smiley social Dancerman/Mark...

First thing that comes to mind...

2005-03-31T01:34:43Z

Stolen from a friend who stole it from a friend...

Okay, the way this works is that I say a word, and then you say the first word that pops into your mind when you read that word. Then the next person says a word... and so on.
You can reply back as often as you want just as long as another posts in between yours.
Let's see how long it can get this mother!!!

Passion

Captains log...

2005-03-17T20:56:54Z

Aliki.. we are too much alike soemtimes.. I think.. ;-)

Take the Star Trek Quiz

hmmm...

2005-03-14T01:41:44Z

Strange emptiness...
somethings missing?
forgot something?
the haze is everywhere
clear thoughts unfound
dwelling, wondering, thinking...
wandering lost within thought
wondering where it leads
should I follow?

mwahahaha!!!

2005-03-09T00:20:57Z

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

Your own bare hands

Your Favorite Target:

Inanimate objects

Your Kill Count:

739,780,623

Your Battle Cry:

"Who let the dogs out?"

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$189,033,744,261,287

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 74%

Quiz created with MemeGen!

introspective...

2005-03-08T23:45:43Z

I found this hanging on a wall at work a few weeks ago and I figured it was good enough to share...

When I have food
Help me to remember the hungry
When I have Work
Help me to remember the jobless
When I have a warm home
Help me to remember the homeless
When I am without pain
Help me to remember those who suffer
And remembering, help me
to destroy my complacency
and bestir my compassion
make me concerned enough
to help, by word and deed
those who cryout
for what we take for granted.